oh happy day

i'm not feeling sane now..
my head hurts. my body really really feels heavy
and i'm about to cry.

i wanna drink beer.
or at least i just wanna paint

yes paint. i don't know just to let everything out.

i just need to let it all out.

drama crap.

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nice told me: someone told me there is a thin line bet love and hate and i know you love him, don't deny it, it may be small love, like love with the tiniest measurement possible, but see you love him all the same, and since there is a sort of transitivity between love and hate, you think you want to hate him when what you really want is to love him, and you're forbidden to do that, or at least that's how you see it, that's why you're all displaced